#it's going to take me a really long time to get over this #i don't give a flying FUCK if you're tired of these posts like leave me alone
I keep going through all of these things that were good about us and wondering what changed to suddenly make him say that he didn’t want to be dating me anymore.
-i really enjoyed us because we met organically and it wasn’t through the internet or set up through a friend and we just got to know each other and really like each other
-i really liked that he clearly understood me and that i could be myself around him. like he didn’t give a shit that i liked one direction and i didn’t give a shit that he absolutely adored human centipede.
-he really loved lady gaga and respected her art and had eloquent talking points about it.
-he had SUCH GOOD HAIR like oh damn fuck that shit
-chill as hell, not annoying. funny. not one to make me feel out of place. he was genuinely sweet.
and i wasn’t in any kind of rush to hold him down and force him to choose between an official relationship or nothing. i just enjoyed going out and spending time with him. it’s so hard for someone like me who doesn’t go out of my way to meet new people so it was nice to know him romantically. he made me feel happy for the first time in a really long time.